Transvestia

And it hasn't.

For the next couple of months I lived for those rare moments when I could be alone and could indulge my desire to outfit myself according to my tastes. Unfortunately, the opportunities were all too scarce and I had to content myself for the most part with exercising my imagination.

ever.

I learned something of myself during this period, how- Why, I kept asking myself over and over again, am I attracted to transvestism (the blessing--or is it the curse--of an inquiring mind)? One conclusion I came to was that when I dressed as a woman I exper- ienced "definition." The female of the species is characterized as being submissive, and if this is a correct assumption her clothing, I believe, is a contributing factor. The pressure of high heels against the foot, the gentle restraint of nylons by a girdle and bra, the restrictiveness of, especially, a tight slip and skirt; a woman does submit to the dictates of her clothes. Yet through all of this-- indeed! because of it--she knows she is a woman every single moment she is so attired. The very pressures and restraints brought to bear on her by her clothing serves to define her as a female. At no time does her high heeled foot expand and spread as far as it can go, as does the man's foot in his shoe. Is a man's calf or thigh, abdomen, waist or chest limited (or defined) by his trousers or shirt? Not within the normal framework of his dress. But a woman is a woman is a woman. Her clothes never let her forget it for an instant. In a dozen ways at once her clothes forbid her to trespass beyond the limits of femininity. And no matter what Thorstein Veblen may say about why women's clothes are as they are (and it is an extremely interesting thesis; read his Theory of the Leisure Class sometime), I say that this "defin- ition," this "awareness of self," if you please, can bring great joy and peace of mind to a person.

I do not feel that I ever found such "definition" I do feel "defined" when dressed It's as simple as that. I am no

dressed as a man.

as a woman.

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